A New Me

In our home, we were also taught the bad habit of having to finish all the food on our plate. We were told repeatedly about the children in Africa that were starving and we should be thankful we had any food at all. I can remember offering, on more than one occasion, to box up the food and send it to them. My sarcastic remarks still get me into trouble and I still have trouble with the idea of throwing food away.I was not really overweight through my childhood or early adult years, but the potential to be overweight was obvious. I had a little extra flab in all the right places – belly, hips, butt, thighs.It wasn’t until I was an adult that I realized that I have always weighed about 20 pounds more than anyone would guess – thanks to my very dense bones. More than one nurse has gotten on the scale after me to test it, because she didn’t believe I weighed that much.
I carry weight pretty equally over my entire body, with a tendency to carry the most extra around the thighs, followed by the belly. When I gain weight it goes everywhere, so it’s slow to show, allowing me to wait too long before realizing how serious it is. Pretty soon i was seeing 212 on that scale and that did a number on my self-esteem.
But it wasnt untill one rude remark from someone “your too pretty to be so fat” well that made me change my life around.At the time i was so hurt but now i wish i could thank that person because it got me in gear to lose the weight. I wake up eveyday at 530 Am and dedicated 2 hours to the gym im now addicted to that and clean eating. I have about 25 more pounds to go untill im at my goal weight, and im slowly getting that selfconfidence back that every Woman should have.